I have grown so much from who I was a year ago. I think I like my condition better on this day because I am less timid and I’m so much braver now to encounter tougher experiences. Although I do admit that staying the same feels comfortable and safer, but as time progress towards a day, to a week, then a month — staying the same feels insipid. Growth gives a brand new meaning for me and it asserts new belief in me about myself, about my aim, about my position. Although I was a product of the past experiences that I went through, but they are just the layers of me as I went through various levels to becoming better now and onwards.   

I’ve come to terms with my new life, quieter, with controlled emotions and high consciousness of my actions and thoughts. It feels peaceful to talk less about the things that does not matter to most, not getting my psychological reactions misinterpreted and defined recklessly based on defensiveness that comes from my own. At last because not everything is about me, and humans tend to careless about my underlying process and undergoing maintenance. That’s just how a life is, humans accept the best result that works for them. Though I don’t condone unhealthy submissiveness on myself, there are things that I have yet to figure out and experience, constructive feedbacks are necessary in building some new perspective. Just as long as my work ethics don’t derail far way to perfectionism and under par.