Hi you,

I’m trying my best to keep up with the writing of my daily or weekly thoughts — the ones that are so intense especially.

Here goes one thing. 

I noticed lately that I have been so aggressive in the way I behave, the way I talk. You could possibly notice that by seeing me talking fast and in a much higher tone, and when I walk quite stompingly and fast as if I am frantic. I took note on when somebody told me why did I appear like I was rushing? I pondered about it for awhile whilst trying to slow down my pace and get in the rhythm. I probably produced this impulse outward because I have been overwhelmed with some internal processes. What are the internal processes exactly? I think I know them, but I cannot tell you. 

Experiencing all these make me feel like I’m frantically leaping everywhere to deal with one thing that I had no idea about but in all honesty, I prefer it this way so I know that there’s a negative energy somewhere that can produce a good impact at the end. It’s like the August from last year, I sublimated my anger with excessive “some things” and it produced even more good things. 

It put me into some kind of realization that I am in a cycle, it is unhealthy for now, because I couldn’t stay consistent with certain good habits (e.g: taking supplements, going for daily walk to get the sun) cus I haven’t been able to flex my way from this to that yet. I just keep on ruminating in my head that; balance. Practice balance first! So, I guess I will tell you how it goes later.