What if her ending is not a happy one just like everyone says?

Because she looks so goddamn fine carrying on with her life.

As if everything — is so perfectly fine, and she moved on, 

That she cares truly less about anything else.

But what if she ends up with suicide?

Therapy could be the answer, but what's there

to fix?

When I perfectly know how fucked up I am

And that I definitely know the answer for many things,

I know what to do right after a certain occurrence.

But what if I feel like I'm perfectly fine without help 

— that I will and am perfectly fine drowning in this sea?

What if I don't want to stop it?

And what if I just want to end everything?